I decided to post this blog below because my life and my family's life has been adversely, negatively affected by being a part of the Masonic and Eastern Stars. Yes, I know the organizations are presented as community organizations, especially to Christians.

My life has done a 180 degree turn since I made the decision to renounce my family's historical and generational involvement in these organizations that are part of the occult. I made the decision to break the biblical, generational curses that are automatically active in your life once you join these organizations. Those in my family who have chosen not to do so still suffer to this very day.

They shrug their repeated life mishappenings as a bad day, bad luck, or whatever they choose to pawn it off on. The Holy Spirit can speak to you better than any person. I challenge you to ask the Holy Spirit to speak to you about your involvement or your family's involvements in any society or organization that has initiations or secrets. My dearly beloved believers in the body of Christ, the Bible is very clear about this subject.

While pastoring a church in Arkansas, I was asked to take a church that was on a spiritual and numeric decline.

I accepted the call, and in November 1990, 1 became pastor of the First Baptist Church of Columbia, Louisiana.

For the first few months, the chairman of the Pulpit Committee regularly visited my office telling me what I could or could not do.

He was especially opposed to door-to-door evangelism.

Soon I learned that a group of other men shared his views.

They criticized most of the former pastors and even explained in detail how they had "railroaded" a full-time youth pastor out of the church.

His removal was so slick, they said, that no one in the congregation knew what was happening.

Their message was clear, "Do what we want, or we will do the same to you."

They kept me so busy carrying out their plans, projects, and agendas that I had little time to
listen to God.

When I would move in the direction I felt God wanted, one of them would show up with all kinds of plans and projects. I was continually derailed from God's leading.

There was small numeric growth with these activities, but the church was spiritually dead.

Worship was oppressive, as if a dark cloud hovered over the services.

Throughout this time the chairman of the Pulpit Committee repeatedly gave me a funny handshake. I had no clue
what he was doing.

Finally, God began to speak to me that I needed to listen to His direction, not the direction of these men.

His Words were so clear, "Concentrate on worship, revival, evangelism, and making disciples."

When I first began to emphasize worship, I sensed resistance from the Minister of Music, who proudly wore his Masonic ring and tie tack.

Several months later, however, he went through a spiritual crisis and prayed to receive Christ.

Two weeks later he gave his testimony in church.

After his testimony, I stood to invite others to come forward and receive Christ.

I was shocked at what I saw.

Although there was rejoicing on a few faces, most were hostile - so hostile that it sent chills up and down my spine.

As I looked at their faces, I identified them as Masons and their Eastern Star wives.

"This is demonic," I thought. When I started two discipleship groups, there was tremendous resistance within the deacon body.

One deacon, who was also a Mason, tried to wreck every session.

When I emphasized a personal relationship with Jesus, he became combative and hostile.

He argued so much during Wednesday night Bible study that I had to switch to straight preaching.

Hungry for fellowship, I had been praying for months for a soul-winning partner.

God answered that prayer when the Music Minister expressed a desire to go out witnessing.

We went from house to house sharing Jesus, and quietly, without fanfare, his Masonic ring and
tie tack disappeared.

He told me that God had convicted him about being a Mason, and that he had formally renounced Freemasonry through a letter of resignation sent to the lodge.

Gradually, a group in the church began to catch a vision for having a personal walk with Jesus, learning discipleship, and evangelism.

The church services began to change.

I could feel God's presence in every service.

The Masons, however, were not rejoicing.

The one who had so frequently given me the Masonic handshake, called my home and threatened me that
if I didn't get the Minister of Music "calmed down," the deacons would "take care of him."

As one group in the church grew closer to Jesus, another group became increasingly resistant
toward what God was doing, and hostile toward me as pastor.

Seven couples began forming a wall of resistance.

Of the seven couples, two individuals were not Masons, nor members of the Eastern Star. One was a Seventh Day Adventist, and the other's father was a 32nd Degree Mason.

During this same period, a sister church was experiencing a touch of God, with the same resistance from Masons.

Not willing to participate in the battle, several couples left that church and came to ours.

They openly acknowledged that they had been upset because the Masons had squelched the moving of God in that church.

The Masonic group in our church immediately began a verbal attack against the newcomers.

One Mason summoned me to his house and warned me that the newcomers could cause trouble in our church because of their attacks on Masonry.

He revealed that he was a Mason and that there was not going to be a discussion of Freemasonry at First Baptist.

He warned that a previous pastor had tried to deal with the Masonic issue in the church and had created
problems as a result.

I located the former pastor and learned that he had maintained a bookstore which contained several books exposing Freemasonry.

One night someone broke into the store and stole all the books on Masonry.

"If Freemasonry is just a harmless men's fraternity, why get upset about a few books?

Why all the scrambling to hide books and refuse to even discuss Masonry?

If Masonry is of God, let's bring everything out in the open and see what wonderful things God has done in Masonry.

But if it is not of God, then there are many reasons to operate in darkness and secrecy."

These were my thoughts.

It was at this time we began experiencing demonic manifestations during the services.

Usually the demons would surface when I preached on our victory over Satan through the blood of Christ.

Any aspect of victory in the Christian life or salvation messages would stir up the demons.

During a series of messages on revival, and the filling of the Holy Spirit, there was considerable agitation.

All of those with demonic manifestations were either Masons or Eastern Star wives.

Hostility toward me began to increase, all directed by the Masons.

Deacons' meetings became nothing more than open season on the pastor.

Again, led by the Masons.

Finally, the man who had given me numerous Masonic handshakes came to my office, tearing into me about the spiritual atmosphere that was developing within the church.

As he was verbally attacking me, suddenly a force, as it were, came out from him and hit me.

Evil surrounded me. I sensed oppression.

Within two days the oppression became deep depression.

All that week I read books on spiritual warfare to educate myself on what was happening.

By Sunday a black cloud of spiritual oppression had settled over the entire church.

I told no one of my encounter with the Mason, yet several people verbally expressed that things were different in the church.

This oppression continued for eight months, while life for me and my family was a living hell.

It was as though sharks could smell blood and were coming in for the kill.

Vicious attacks by the Masons were leveled against me and my family, and against all who
supported me.

I became so physically ill that I had to enter the hospital for two weeks.

The church decided to give me a three-month sabbatical, which at first seemed compassionate.

It soon was evident that this generous action was a disguise to buy time, so that the Masons could remove me from the church.

When I returned from my sabbatical, the deacons informed me that I was no longer pastor - that the church would have to vote me back in.

This was one of those instances in which a few deacons decided their own agenda privately.

No one else knew what was going on.

This is the way satan works - always in the dark, in secret, behind closed doors.

satan lost temporarily.

The vote was never taken and I was permitted to resume preaching.

Two months later, at a monthly business meeting, the Masonic group succeeded in voting me out.

The members voting against me included many who had rarely come to church, and some I had never seen before! I was not permitted to speak, and the meeting was so hostile that I thought I was going to be mobbed.

Those who were yelling, screaming, and jumping out of their seats were one and all Masons and their Eastern Star wives.

Shortly after leaving First Baptist I had a counseling session with Dr. Mark Bubek, who is well known both nationally and internationally for his experience in spiritual warfare.

After hearing about the man who regularly harassed me in my office, his first question was, "Is he a Mason?"

He confirmed that I had been under heavy demonic attack.

I never preached against Masonry, so the attack was not a counterattack.

It was simply that the spirit behind Freemasonry opposes anything God-sent, Christ-exalted, Spirit empowered
that brings revival to the church.

Yes, the Masons reacted negatively to my messages on grace.

They were infuriated when I suggested man could not earn his way to heaven.

They were not opposed to inviting people to church.

They were opposed to the evangelism that was taking place in church, once the visitors arrived.

And they were greatly offended by the fact that people in the church were going door-to-door in the community, asking people if they knew that they had eternal life.

The Masonic message is one that abhors a Christian life that has Jesus Christ at the center.

The Masons in Columbia regard First Baptist as an extension of their lodge.

Well, they have preserved that extension, for today First Baptist has disintegrated into a handful of men and
women, primarily the Masonic and Eastern Star group.

The price of their success was the destruction of a house of God, and the persecution of its pastor and many God-fearing people.

Such is the spirit and purpose of Freemasonry.

What are pastors to do? First, take a stand on Freemasonry. Second, write your position in a letter and mail it to your
national headquarters.

By Stuart Bedillion

Stewart Bedillion
Ephesians 5:11, Inc., Box 291, Fishers, IN 46038
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Copyright 1997. This testimony is used with permission. It is from the 1998 reprint of The Character, Claims and Practical Workings of Freemasonry, by Charles G. Finney. It was originally published in 1869. The book is available from JKI Publishing at (800) 333-5344.

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As atrocious and inhumane as slavery was, this Senate resolution was not mentioned on one major news television outlet in America.

The U.S. Senate on Thursday, June 18, 2009, passed a resolution apologizing to African-Americans for the wrongs of slavery. The nonbinding resolution sponsored by Senator Tom Harkin, D-Iowa, is similar to a House resolution adopted in 2008 that acknowledged the wrongs of slavery but offered no reparations.

The House will have to vote on the issue again because the composition of that chamber changed after the November 2008 elections. The resolution was approved on a voice vote.

Because it is nonbinding, it does not have to be forwarded to the President of the United States for his signature. Several states have passed similar resolutions, but the House resolution was the first time a branch of the federal government did so.

Harkin's resolution acknowledges the fundamental injustice, cruelty, brutality and inhumanity of slavery, and Jim Crow laws, and apologizes to African-Americans on behalf of the people of the United States for the wrongs committed against them and their ancestors who suffered under slavery and Jim Crow laws.

Jim Crow laws were state and local laws enacted mostly in U.S. Southern and border states between the 1870s and 1965 that denied African-Americans the right to vote and other civil liberties, as well as legally segregated them from whites.

Some members of the African-American community have called on lawmakers to give cash payments or other financial benefits to descendants of slaves as compensation for the suffering caused by slavery.

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You hear a lot about forgiveness and how we need to release those who have sinned against us. But what if the person you need to forgive is yourself? What if you can’t move forward because of something you know you’ve done wrong and it haunts you? When taking people through biblical, integrated healing and deliverance it's been learned over decades that the most difficult thing for people to do is forgive themselves.

There are always three parts to forgiveness: 1) forgiving others and others forgiving you; 2) forgiving or really releasing God [cause many of us are ticked off at the Lord and just afraid to admit it; it's okay you can admit it, you will not be sinning or loose your space in line to get into heaven]; and 3) forgiving yourself.

Satan speaks many lies to us that simply are not true. So what does he speak? He says the following lies to us.

a) What I did so such a big sin the Lord cannot forgive it.

b) I knew better and still did it, so it's not forgivable.

c) I've continued to repeat this same behavior and I'm so ashamed, I just can't ask for forgiveness again.

d) I've downed others and have now done what I said I wouldn't do. I'm a terrible person.

Remember, that these four things I wrote above are lies from satan. And the Bible clearly repeats that the father of lies is satan. So I encourage you today to release yourself from false guilt and accept the forgiveness that is available for you today.

Cry in private if you need to and wail out your pain. Write yourself a letter to get it mentally out of your head. Speak the words out loud saying you forgive yourself and ask the Holy Spirit to supernaturally work the self-forgiveness down into the granules and crevices of your hurting, almost numb, heart. Ask the Holy Spirit to bring life, no abundant life, into your heart, mind and life.

Author and speaker Joe Beam joins us to deal with a listener's question about this important topic here!

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This forgiveness audio features Joe Beam is an internationally-known inspirational speaker and best-selling author.

He founded Family Dynamics Institute in 1994 and in 2008 he founded LovePath International, and serves as its president.

He has spoken to millions of people worldwide in personal appearances as well as appearances on television and radio, including ABC's Good Morning America, Focus on the Family, the Montel Williams Show, NBC's Today Show, The Dave Ramsey Show, and The Morning Show with Mike and Juliet. After earning his bachelor's degree [Magna Cum Laude] from Southern Christian University, Beam did graduate studies in Clinical Psychology at the University of Evansville.

He is currently involved in research to complete his Ph.D in Biomedical science at the University of Sydney. He has authored many magazine articles, corporate training programs, and is the author of several books, including the national bestseller Seeing the Unseen, Getting Past Guilt, and Becoming One: Emotionally, Spiritually, and Sexually.

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Natural Herbs For Energy

GO-W | Herb no. 1 For Energy

There are times when an individual must rely on a stimulant to fulfill their commitments and duties. The trouble with most stimulants, such as coffee and tea, is they operate on the fly now and pay later principle. In other words, they act like a whip for a tired horse. They burn your reserve nutrients to squeeze out the last ounce of energy and then the crash comes.

This leaves you feeling empty and drained inside unless you practice heavy supplementation of vitamins and minerals. The concept here, for a good stimulant, would be to use the principle of pay as you go. And that is what GO.-W does.

A generous provision of energy and nutrients run side by side. Liquid Bee Pollen and licorice root are instant energy for the adrenal glands [glands, one on top of each kidney, that produce numerous anti-stress compounds] that balance out the boost provided by the herb bitter orange.

Prickly Ash sweeps away fatigue products such as acids and carbon dioxide, and capsicum provides the spark to drive oxygen to the brain and vital organs carried by the herb Eyebright. A person is refreshed and ready to go. When you have miles to go and promises to keep before you rest this night there is help in the form of GO.-W.

This combination herb includes the following herbs | MaHuang, bitter orange, bee pollen, eyebright, licorice root, gentian, prickly ash and capsicum.

Dose | 30 to 40 drops, as needed

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E. & F.-W [energy and fitness]  | Herb no. 2 For Energy

With an increased awareness of physical fitness and a demand for natural energy in unlimited quantities, the energy and fitness formula was developed. A body that will do what it ought to, when you want it to, is a goal worth working for. A body that won't is a traitor. So, oxygenate your tissues and your body into the friendly camp.

Enjoy your exercise or jogging or walk and develop a new you in the process. For the athlete or athlete-to-be who shuns steroids and other drug substances to build an honest body, this can be part of the answer. It has been said that the more you can move around, the more alive you are. This is true. You know a child is sick if he or she does not enjoy moving around.

What do you think about an adult? That's right, the same thing is true for an adult. Be prepared to work for four months to derive the maximum benefits, as well as the immediate benefits.

These herbs make up this combination herb |Siberian ginseng, dong quai, juniper berry, bee pollen, licorice root, peppermint leaf, capsicum, gentian, blessed thistle and eyebright

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Sow Thistle | Herb no. 3 for Energy

Sow Thistle is also known as Hare Thistle or Rabbit Thistle. Our American Native peoples have been able to learn much and teach us much by their observation of wild animals. It was observed that the hare [rabbit], in desperation, while being worried by wolves or foxes, has often been observed to snatch a mouthful of this plant in mid-leap, during full flight, to get the extra burst of energy necessary to evade its tormentors. This is an emergency energy source for quick pick-me-ups with no harmful aftereffects. Non-addictive, pure energy. [Combines well with Siberian Ginseng]

Dose | 10 to 40 drops as often as needed

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Sarsaparilla | Herb no. 4 For Energy

During the 1800's, Sarsaparilla, as a drink, was as well known as the coca-cola drink of today. The reasons it was enjoyed were many. First of all, it is an excellent source of energy to recover from exhaustion; secondly, it helps a person conquer stress; thirdly, it is a frisky hormone source for both men and women; lastly, it handles and prevents venereal disease, especially when mixed with half Golden Seal. Sarsaparilla can also be effectively employed for relief of menopause, skin eruptions, lymphatic problems and the heartbreak of psoriasis.

Dose | 40 to 80 drops following meals or as an in-between meal pick-me-up. Apply externally daily, as needed, to skin problems and swellings. As an hormonal source for women or men, 80 drops 3 times per day.

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Rice Bran | Herb no. 5 For Energy

Source of original B-complex discovery - outer layers of rice grain. Vitamin B-Complex source for strong, steady nerves and sustained energy. The B-Complex could comfortably be described as the don't go crazy vitamins. The B-Complex has been proven, again and again, as the vitamins to use when you feel there is nowhere to find cessation from aggravation. Rice Bran, being a very rich source of a balanced B-Complex profile of vitamins, can be vital to maintaining normal blood sugar levels for those suffering from low blood sugar.

The B-Complex allows the nerves of the body to feed on blood sugar and function normally for an harmonious personality and a clear head for memory and clear thinking. To develop natural stamina, take Rice Bran and eat high quality protein foods on a regular basis. Persist until results, no matter how long it takes, whether you feel the results within minutes, or it takes months and much recuperation is required.

Dose | 40 to 80 drops following meals. Stress and increased mental and physical activity burn up more of the B-Complex vitamins. If a trying time arises, double the normal amount on that day.

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Brewer's Yeast | Herb no. 6 for Energy

Is a microscopic plant without chlorophyll [green colored structures in plants that eat light as their food.] Therefore, it must have much the same right kinds of foods you do to live on. By feeding yeast a good diet [things you might not eat] and letting them grow, they assemble a rich natural mineral complex and manufacture the entire vitamin B complex of vitamins. By making an extract of Brewer's Yeast cells, which involves removing their cellular contents from their external covering, we obtain their treasures on which we can run our bodies.

The nerves can carry messages properly, the brain functions properly, our emotional environment stabilizes and life is pleasurable again. Natural energy levels soar. Hypoglycemia [low blood sugar] is stabilized by the beautiful protein profiles provided by Brewer's Yeast, as well as it's complete natural profile of B-Complex Vitamins.

Diabetes, or high blood sugar, is likewise favorably influenced by the same properties. Brewer's Yeast also has an additional property to correct pancreatic function. When the diet has chromium restored to it the pancreas, in many cases, will again make the hormone insulin needed for the digestion of blood sugar.

And, Brewer's Yeast just happens to be one of the best, most reliable and easily obtained sources of organic chromium. The tongue is a very sensitive indicator for what is going on in the body, much like looking at a dip-stick of an automobile. Sore tongue, red tongue, black tongue, groove down the center of the tongue, vertical lines in the lower lip, loss of upper lip, scalloped tongue [where teeth indentations are shown on the side of the tongue] and cracks at the sides of the mouth corners disappear.

Persist no matter what, until the condition is corrected. Correcting these abnormalities of the tongue has a much greater effect on the entire nervous system and brain than just the cosmetic effect which is seen.

Dose | 40 drops to 80 drops 3 times per day

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Bee Pollen | Herb no. 7 for Energy

Plant sperm from male portion of flowers, collected by choosey female experts known as bees. Promotes longevity, quick energy, stabilizes and corrects low blood sugar, contains all the elements for new life such as genetic materials named RNA and DNA, rejuvenating, excellent antibiotic, and can be used for internal and external dressings of wounds.

If painful sore throat, soak cheese cloth or absorbent gauze with Bee Pollen Extract and wrap around throat, cover with plastic wrap and a final layer of cloth on top of this to hold all in place. Change morning and night. Repeat until well.

To restore the stamina of youth even under severe stress, 1 - 3 tbl. per day. Start with 1 tbl. per day. Persist even if it takes months. There is a nasty rumor going around, which says a man with a vacuum cleaner can collect pollen from flowers cleaner and riper than choosy female bees.

The rumor also states that Bee Pollen is hard to digest. In an extract form, however, the contents of the pollen grains have been removed and are free of the cellulose [wooden] pollen husks. This makes the Bee Pollen extract very digestible. The proof of this is that Bee Pollen extract works and it works beautifully.

I sincerely hope that you will squelch this nasty rumor about Bee Pollen extract and bees when you hear it. Leave it to the bees, the real specialists! Bee Pollen extract from ripe selected pollen is so good that it is used to counteract allergies even those caused by wild, unripe, air-born pollen.

Dose |10 to 40 drops once a day for energy or as desired. 40 to 80 drops per meal as a correction and prevention for allergies. For rejuvenation, longevity, rebuilding stamina and for all other internal uses 1 tsp. to 1 tbl. 3 times per day.

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M.G.-W | Herb no. 8 for Energy

A multi-glandular, quick-energy food combination for glandular nourishment and energy on a daily basis. Reversal of starved glands that cause a body to age prematurely. Nourish each of the glands each day with what they would like and need and you'll enjoy life much more. Do this for a few days and you'll feel the difference; do this for years and in many ways you will be years ahead of those who don't. Excellent for both men and women.

M.G.-W is made of these herbs | Ginger, sarsaparilla, licorice root, dulse, gotu kola, gentian, alfalfa and chamomile.

Dose | 10 to 40 drops after meals, or 3 times per day

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Bee Pollen Special | Herb no. 9 for Energy

Texas has its share of good herbalists and practitioners. It is there this special formula was born of necessity and rugged self reliance with an observation for what does the job. Master practitioners, helping each other, produced this combination to overcome fatigue and renew their stamina to serve others. You wonder what practitioners themselves take -- well, this is one of their choices. Thank you Texas, Courter Family and Pat Castro.

Bee Pollen Special includes these herbs | bee pollen, licorice, root and elderberry flowers.

Dose | 40 drops, as needed. Hourly, if necessary, until fatigue is overcome.

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Formula Three | Herb no. 10 for Energy

This life-saving formula was designed for desperate cases, on their last legs, to regain a foothold on life and upon which to recuperate. The best of three energy sustaining herbs are combined here to support the function of each other and, by so doing, increase their combined affect. Together, they are the right team for rescuing those suffering from chronic fatigue and exhaustion.

Formula No. 3 includes | licorice root, bee pollen, siberian and ginseng

Dose | 40 drops, hourly, as needed. In desperate cases, can be taken at the rate of 1 tsp. to 1 tbl., 3 times per day, until well. Energy supply to the body is swift. To regain stamina [constant high levels of energy on tap when needed that don't fade out], maintain this level of intake for as long as needed, even if it takes months! Also, each day the person should walk or move a little further, even if the first day is only a few steps or a very short distance.

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Three Bees | Herb no. 11 for Energy

The best of three bee products are combined in this high energy, antibiotic formula. Bee pollen [bee collected plant sperm] provides energy, the elements of new life for cell regeneration and antibiotic activity, as well as a high quality protein source and first-rate anti-stress adrenal gland nutrition. Bee propolis [bee glue] possesses the antibiotic spark to raise immunity levels and get the life systems moving again.

Putrid material is rendered harmless. Low-grade fevers disappear. Royal Jelly [queen bee food] is that elixir of life which extends the normal life span of an infertile worker bee from a few weeks to several years as a queen with great fertility. Together, these three bee products provide a powerful formula for the entire nervous system. The body virtually glows with renewed vigor.

Three Bees includes | bee pollen, bee propolis and royal jelly

Dose | 40 drops, 3 times per day. If needed to spark systems back into action, 40 drops per hour, while awake until well. Then as a maintenance, 40 drops, three times per day to stay well.

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Wow, this is a subject that tugs close to my heart strings, how about yours? Do you know how many people have blocked emotions? I do. Guess I kinda used to be one of them. I remember saying, I just really don't like crying -- especially not in front of people.

Well, why not? The Lord created emotions, actually in the book of Genesis. There must be a reason He created tear ducts, and even biologically and physiologically there's a reason for them. I've typically preferred crying alone, you know, it's private, no one sees you and if it messes up your make up, you can straighten it up. Right now, my mind rolls back to two crying episodes I had where I just couldn't control the tears.

First crying episode

I was on a business trip in South Carolina and I was tired after landing at the airport.
I was exhausted emotionally and mentally.
I decided, I'm not going to work today, instead I'll eat lunch and rest, after all, I don't know anyone in this city.
I ate lunch and when I finished, a stranger in the restaurant walked up to me and said, "Baby, the weight on you is so heavy, I felt it across the restaurant and I've been sitting over there praying for you."
I remained quiet, I didn't know her.
She asked while standing at my table, “May I pray for you?”
I said yes and she began to pray while touching my hand [the waitresses are now looking because they know we didn't come in together].
Bear-sized tears began racing from my face because this woman called out everything that was wrong with me and I didn't know her.
Yes, people in the restaurant are really looking now.
After praying the lady said, do you have car, did you come here in a car.
I said yes, my rental is outside.
She said, go in the car, roll up the windows and cry as hard as you need to.
I did just that.
I exited the restaurant, drove across the street to a bookstore parking lot, went way in the back of the parking lot -- and baam, I wailed like an animal in the forest who was wounded and no one was there to rescue them.
I'll never forget that cry.

Second crying episode

I'm now in another state years later and I spontaneously decided to have a meal with a lady I'd met like about two days prior.
I'd been doing some reflecting on my life and thought I was fine.
The Lord was dealing with me on an issue I really didn't want to talk to people about.
After all, nothing is ever going to change, so why bother even addressing it.
Sometimes you just have to accept things the way they are right?
No, wrong!
Why is that wrong, because what I believed DID NOT align with The Bible, the Word of God.
If what I believe doesn't align, then what I believe is not true.
The Word of God is true, it is the truth, which meant what I believed was a lie.
Yes, it had been a reality for a long time, but it was a lie I believed because the situation had been that way for so long.
Well, let me tell you.
I sat at that meal table with just about a perfect stranger.
We were eating.
And I tried to be civil and talk, do the small talk exchange.
Lord, that didn't last for two minutes.
The tear ducts RIPPED and there was no way I could conceal the tears.
This wasn't a simple cry, the veins in my soul had ruptured and here I am with a complete stranger.
It's a beautiful thing when you can communicate with a person -- human spirit to human spirit -- without using any words.
Really in this particular situation it was the spirit of the Lord in me connecting with the Spirit of the Lord in her.
That lady rubbed my right shoulder and the top of my back.
She didn't say a word.
Underneath my breathe I eked out the words repeatedly, "They are not better than me."
I just kept repeating that because that had been my inner struggle that started centuries before I was born.
I just bought into the lie because it had been passed down generation to generation to me -- and in ignorance I accepted it.

Well, Beloved reader, I simply share with you today, you have the freedom and are released to cry.
Cry in public.
Cry in private.
Cry with friends.
Cry with enemies.
Cry with your spouse.
Cry with the Lord holding you.
Cry in your car.
Cry in the bathroom stall at work.
Cry in your woman's lap.
Cry on your man's shoulder.

It's okay; you are now released and have the freedom to cry.

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If you are going to do business with God, the currency is forgiveness.

Hello Beloved reader. I decided to write this unforgiveness article for you because it helped me. A few months back I attended an open-to-the-public ministry session where these questions were asked. I think many of us Christians were surprised at how many times we answered yes. Remember now – be honest with yourself. No one will see your paper but you.

Unforgiveness is one of the most powerful enemies in the body of Christ today. Do you know how many illnesses or infirmities are directly related to unforgiveness? One thing all people who are called to work in healing and deliverance should know when dealing with illnesses is to learn if the person standing or sitting before them has an issue with unforgiveness.

It is critical to learn if there is a single person that they’ve not forgiven. It is necessary to ask the person when exactly in their life were they diagnosed with the illness. Proceed to ask the person what life events were going on at or near that time. Often, the following are typical responses a person might give.

I've experienced betrayal. I lost my job and the boss could have let another person go because I was there longer. These are two of many reasons any person could share as to why they’ve not forgiven someone.

Now listen, beloved reader, do you know that sometimes people have instantly been healed of their infirmity on the spot once this unforgiveness has been taken care of spiritually. Keep in mind this is one of four things that must be addressed in an integrated healing & deliverance ministry session.

Will you get out a piece of paper and a pen, pretty please? Now, read the statements below. Each time the statement is true for you, make a check mark on your paper. Once you’re done reading each statement on the unforgiveness stronghold, you’ll talley up your score.

Answer these unforgiveness questions honestly

1) I find myself holding grudges.

2) I retreat into isolation from others.

3) I erupt in anger or I boil inside.

4) I think of ways to get even with others who hurt me.

5) I just bury the wrongs done to me without really addressing them.

6) I pity myself.

7) I carry bitterness and anger towards those who have hindered me or willfully, purposely wronged me.

8) Instead of stating the truth, I make excuses for those who wronged or hurt me.

9) I often feel sorry for myself.

10) Occasionally I think I truly am some kind of martyr.

11) Nobody has had it as bad as me.

12) I want to get even with people who’ve cause me pain.

13) I insulate or protect myself behind the walls of defensiveness.

14) I don’t trust others.

15) I just can’t forgive [which really is you want forgive].

16) I’m anger with God for allowing bad things to happen to me.

17) I act like nothing happen instead of confronting issues that have hurt me.

18) I can’t get over my past.

Please talley up your check marks to see how you scored.

If you have 1 – 4 check marks, you’re in the lower percentile [25%] of operating in unforgiveness.

If you have 5 – 9 check marks, you’re in the middle percentile [50%] of operating in unforgiveness. This is average for most Christians. Now, we all know what the Bible clearly states about any unforgiveness, right? So even if you scored in the lowest percentile, it needs to be taken care of.

If you have 10 – 14 check marks, you’re in the upper percentile [75%] of operating in unforgiveness. Yep, you betcha – this sure enough has to be addressed because you’re in bondage beloved.

If you have 15 or more check marks, you very likely have the stronghold of unforgiveness. If you don’t know how to break this stronghold and remove the demons holding it in place in your life, learn or go receive ministry please. What book would I suggest that’s a must read, Biblical Healing & Deliverance: An Integrated Approach to Biblical Healing Ministry by Chester & Betsy Kylstra.

Beloved reader, you already know the key to forgiveness is releasing the debt. By forgiving, you are not justifying what the person did to you is okay. By forgiving, you are not minimizing the devastating impact what they did has had on your life.

Well, here's the age old question – why is it that it’s so darn hard to forgive some things, some people. It is because the one time hurt or the repeated hurt has wounded your soul or wounded your spirit or wounded both. Usually the hurt(s), even though they can’t be seen, have really crippled you inside. The crippling could be mentally and/or emotionally and/or physically. Some hurts have downright debilitated some of us to the point that illness occurs.

And if we're transparent here, not forgiving the person make some Christians they have a [false] sense of power over the person [especially if the person wants to be forgiven]. As long as we choose to not forgive any person for any thing, we literally carry that person with us daily. What do I mean? You have a shackle attached to a ball-and-chain at the bottom of your ankle.

The weighted ball-and-chain is directly attached to each person you've not forgiven. You literally carry their body weight around with you all day long. In the shower, to bed with you, in the car with you, to the grocery store with you. More importantly, you carry those you've not forgiven with you mentally and emotionally every day, which is yet another reason you're weighted down internally. Although we still respond to people saying, "We're fine, blessed, highly favored."

So beloved reader – we’re at a crossroads here. The Bible says to forgive and that forgiveness is non-negotiable. Well yeah, this is true. What’s been learned in integrated healing & deliverance is sometimes we first have to have the Holy Spirit take care of the hurts at every spiritual and emotional level before the forgiveness can even be approached. And in very extreme cases, the forgiveness takes times, like in layers, which is better than not at all.

Please know if you are a person who works in ministry or if you are a leader of any kind, people will violate you. You cannot afford to allow this unforgiveness to place you in bondage. Let’s look at Joseph’s life in the Bible. He had so many reasons to not forgive his brothers. What did Joseph do [Genesis 39]? He stayed before the Lord, and yes, he forgave his family. Even though Joseph was a grown man, he sobbed like a child.

What is forgivness?

Is a spiritual decision to release the person, entity, institution or group who hurt you, betrayed you

Is cancelling someone from the consequence of falling short of God’s standard in your life

Is releasing resentment toward the very person who exacted very real hurt on you

Is dismissing our demand that the person owes us something

Is releasing the right to be bitter

Is releasing the right to get even

Is of God

Is releasing the right to hear the words, “I’m sorry.”

Is an act of our spiritual will

Is a process especially for those who’ve been abused/deeply hurt

What forgiveness is not

Is not a feeling

Is not an emotion

Is not being a doormat

Is not conditional

Is not stuffing your anger

Is not based on what’s fair

Is not excusing the wrong done to you

Is not justifying the wrong done to you

Is not you executing God’s wrath

Is not repentance

Is not based on what a person deserves

Is not you waiting for time to heal all wounds

Is not reconciliation [requires a minimum of two people] [forgiveness only requires 1 person]

Is not enablement [a form of people pleasing and repeatedly having no boundaries]

Is not letting the guilty off the hook, you are placing them on God’s hook

Is not denying that the wrong happened to you

The characteristics of an unforgiver

Danger - If you persist in resisting and disobeying God by being unforgiving [or whatever the sin is], you can eventually to given over to the influence of evil, satan and immorality. Acts 7:42

does not agree with God that sin is sin

delayed or even the prevention of spiritual growth

heart is turned away from God

go through verbal acts of repentance

an unforgiver often has diseases & functionally sick

is limited in hearing the voice of the Holy Spirit

an unforgiver can have psychological problems

an unforgiver can be a person laden with stress

elevate yourself above your offender

you’re emotionally stuck to your offender

you share negative information about offender

automatically open the door to satan and his demons

a hardened heart, a condemning heart

tend to be verbally abusive

blind that you’re becoming like your offender

an unforgiver ages faster

being an unforgiver affects your body’s ability to fight disease by weakening your immune system

an unforgiver can have emotional instability – fly off the handle easily or show very little emotion

Define the spirit of unforgivness, which is a stronghold

A simple word to describe this spirit of unforgiveness – hurt, a person who is deeply hurt.

A spirit of unforgiveness goes beyond temporary unwillingness to forgive.

The spirit of unforgiveness is a spiritual acid that eats through the spirit within us.

The spirit of unforgiveness is a supernatural cancer that slowly and deliberately eats you up.

There is a long time period between the time you are hurt and the time you forgive the person who hurt you.

When does unforgiveness become a stronghold?

When you refuse to forgive and the unresolved anger develops a fortified place in your mind and heart; you become mentally captive to do the enemy’s will. Ephesians 6:16

The three parts of forgiveness

Part 1 |Horizontal line of The Cross -- Forgiving others and others forgiving you

Especially needed toward family and church members because this is where most hurts come from

Part 2 | Vertical line of The Cross -- Receiving God forgiveness and us releasing God

Part 3 | Circle or halo where The Cross intersects -- Forgiving yourself and receiving forgiveness from self

Why do Christians have the most difficulty forgiving themselves than any other person?

Lie no. 1 - Sin we committed, the offense is too big to forgive

Lie no. 2 - We knew better and committed the sin anyway

Lie no. 3 - It’s a habitual sin and we continue to do it, it doesn’t deserve grace

Lie no. 4 - We’re so shamed by the sin, we should not exchange the shame for forgiveness

Lie no. 5 – You believe you don’t deserve forgiveness because of who you are

Here, it’s effective to say your own name.

For example, “Your name goes right here, I forgive myself for ____.”

So why do you not forgive when you know to do so

What was done to you or by you was too big

The hurt was planned, intentional and/or repeated

No modeling of forgiveness from our parents

They didn’t forgive me, I will not forgive them

You deny it never happened

Don’t understand God’s forgiveness

You believe the lie that bitterness is a normal response because God knows how you feel.

The pain is so deep [even though it may be simple to others] you just don’t know where to begin.

It is here where you allow the Holy Spirit to heal the pain completely first, then you’re able to forgive.

How does unforgiveness affect your prayer life?

blessings are withheld from us

our prayer life is blocked

we are spiritually dim

God doesn’t forgive us

God resists you

What is unforgiveness?

unforgiveness is a form of pride

is of satan and his demons

grieves the Holy Spirit

showcases a godless heart

keeps us in bondage to sin

is an offense to God, which makes us an offender to God

Forgiveness scriptures

Ephesians 4:30 – 32

Matthew 18: 21, 34 – 35

II Corinthians 2: 10 -11

Matthew 6:12

Mark 11:25

Luke 17: 3 – 4

Luke 23:34

James 4:32

Acts 10:43

Acts 6:4

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Apostle Of Hate — Minister Of Healing By Melanie Hemry

Eagle Mountain International Church, Incorporated, aka Kenneth Copeland Ministries

"Is this Johnny Lee Clary?" A voice asked on the other end of the phone.

"Yes ..."

"The Grand Dragon of the Ku Klux Klan for Oklahoma?"

"That's right."

"Mr. Clary, I'm calling on behalf of a local radio station. We would like to invite you here to the station next Sunday evening for an interview. The program will be live. During that time, we would allow you to read your literature and share your views openly."

Share my views on the radio? There's no telling how many new kids I can recruit! Johnny leaned back in his chair and propped up his feet.

"I'd be most honored to be your guest," he answered, a slow smile spreading across his face. Unlike most Klan members, Johnny Lee didn't shun publicity. He hadn't even minded when television cameras followed him around to schools in the Oklahoma City area, where he recruited kids. The way he looked at it, a man ought to stand up for the truth. And one thing Johnny Lee Clary knew for certain - the Ku Klux Klan stood for the truth.

Seeds of Hatred

His own education in that "truth" began early. He'd been only 5 when he looked out the car window in amazement. "Look, Daddy!" he'd said. "There's a chocolate-covered man!"

His daddy blew cigar smoke out the window in disgust. "That's not a chocolate-covered man," he said. "That's a n-----. Can you say, 'n-----'?"

Johnny Lee had leaned out the window and shouted, "N-----!" His daddy laughed and patted him on the back.

Johnny Lee's training continued when his Uncle Harold would visit from Georgia and tell his stories about the KKK. "I shot a black man for crossing my property," he once bragged to Johnny Lee's father. "The police didn't care that I shot him. But they did fine me for firing a gun in the city limits!" The two men laughed until their faces were red.

Johnny Lee's dad wasn't a member of the Klan. He couldn't be. He was Catholic. One group the Klan hated almost as much as blacks and Jews was Catholics. Johnny's daddy never attended Mass, but he made sure that Johnny Lee was on the Sunday school bus every week to the First Baptist Church.

That is, until the day Johnny Lee leaned out the bus window and screamed, "N-----!" to a black child on the street. That day, Johnny Lee's Sunday school teacher pulled him aside and taught him a song. At home, he proudly sang it for his father.

"Jesus loves the little children, all the children of the world. Red and yellow, black and white ..."

Johnny Lee's daddy never let him go back to that church. He found one closer to home -- an all-white church.

Everyone in their neighborhood hated Johnny Lee's family. The neighbors considered them white trash. Of course, nobody dared call them that. They were afraid to.

The Clary family's popularity took a sudden turn, however, when a black family bought a house in the neighborhood. The whole neighborhood came to Johnny Lee's daddy and asked him to help them get rid of the family. They were willing to buy them out, if they'd leave.

Unfortunately, the neighbors' sudden acceptance of the Clarys didn't make Johnny Lee's family any happier. His parents fought constantly. Their marriage ended tragically when, one night, 11-year-old Johnny Lee walked into a room to see his daddy holding a gun to his head. "Daddy, don't!" he screamed, then watched as his daddy shot himself to death.

After the funeral, Johnny Lee went to live with his older sister in California. But he wasn't happy there. As the months passed, Johnny Lee became more and more lonely. That's when he saw a talk show host interviewing David Duke, the Imperial Wizard of the Ku Klux Klan. Remembering his Uncle Harold, Johnny Lee decided to contact the Klan. Within a few weeks, a man knocked at his door.

"I'm a friend of David Duke," he said. The man sat down and talked to Johnny Lee. "What do you like? Tell me about your life."

Johnny Lee was in awe. Someone wants to hear what I have to say!

"Son, you've had a hard, horrible life," the man said. "What you need is a family. A real family. That's what the Ku Klux Klan is -- a fraternal order. That means family."

Week after week, the man took Johnny Lee to his house for meetings. It was almost as if he had a father again. Between meetings, Johnny studied about the Klan. He was amazed to learn what prominent people were former Klansmen, including at least three U.S. presidents.

Johnny Lee trembled with excitement the day he joined the KKK. He was 14 years old. By age 20, Johnny Lee had worked his way up in the organization, first serving as Duke's bodyguard and later, becoming the Grand Dragon of Oklahoma.

"It was 1979 when I was invited to do the radio interview," Johnny Lee recalls. "I was so excited, I told everyone to tune in. Then, a few days before the interview, I was listening to the radio when they announced the upcoming debate between myself and the state president of the NAACP, the Rev. Wade Watts!

"I'd never actually met a black man. But I knew what to expect: A man in African robes sporting a huge Afro, a button that said, 'I hate white people,' and a sign, 'Black is beautiful.'

"I wasn't prepared for a nicely dressed, older black man carrying a worn Bible."

On the day of the debate, Rev. Watts walked up to Johnny Lee -- his hand outstretched. "Hello, Mr. Clary. I just want to tell you I love you, and Jesus loves you."

Stunned, Johnny Lee shook the man's hand without thinking. The physical touch of a Negro is pollution, he thought.

"Don't worry, son," Rev. Watts said with a grin. "It doesn't rub off."

He has a sense of humor ...?

"Why do you feel the two races shouldn't mingle?" the interviewer asked Johnny Lee as the debate began. "Because Christ ordered it," he explained.

"Son," Rev. Watts interrupted, "where did you get that idea?"

The only Bible verses Johnny Lee knew were the ones outlined in the KKK literature. Speaking slowly, Johnny Lee quoted, "What fellowship hath light with darkness...."

Rev. Watts explained that the scripture was referring to the believer and the nonbeliever, and to sin and righteousness. Then he asked Johnny Lee, "What color skin do you think an Ethiopian has?"

"Black as the ace of spades," Johnny responded.

"I'm glad you said that," Rev. Watts answered. "If you'll look in Numbers 12, you'll see that Moses married an Ethiopian woman. His sister, Miriam, didn't like it either. She talked against Moses and was struck with a horrible disease." He paused for a moment. "You can imagine what is going to happen to you."

Johnny Lee shifted uncomfortably in his chair. This wasn't turning out the way he expected. "Look here," he said, "white people are smarter than black people."

"How do you figure that?" Rev. Watts asked. Johnny Lee told him about an intelligence test that proved white children were smarter than black children.

"What color were the men who came up with that test?" Rev. Watts asked.

"It doesn't matter what color they were!" Johnny declared.

"Well, then," said Rev. Watts, "if it doesn't matter, I'll give you a test right now, and we'll see if you can pass it."

"If you think you're so smart, go ahead."

"How long is the average cockroach?" Rev. Watts asked Johnny Lee. "Do roaches walk, or do they fly? How long does it take a mess of chitlins to cook? What are chitlins?"

"Rev. Watts, you rigged that test," Johnny Lee fumed. "White folks aren't supposed to know that stuff."

"Mr. Clary, now you're getting my point."

Johnny Lee had to do something to get control of the interview. "Look," he said, trying to stay calm, "Thomas Jefferson helped pen our Constitution, and he said emphatically that the two races should never mix."

"I'm impressed that you know so much about our forefathers, Mr. Clary. Does the name Sally Hemmings mean anything to you?"

"No."

"She was Thomas Jefferson's mistress," Rev. Watts said. "They had seven children. She was his personal property. His slave. She was as black as the ace of spades."

"I'm not going to stay here and listen to any more of this!" Johnny fumed, storming out of the room.

Johnny Lee was surprised later when he saw Rev. Watts holding a baby girl. Lifting up the child, Rev. Watts said to Johnny Lee, "This baby's parents were teenagers. Her mother was white and her daddy was black. The boy's family said they wouldn't have a white child in their home, and the girl's family said they wouldn't have a black child in their home. So I adopted her. Tia is my baby now. Mr. Clary, how can you hate this baby?"

Johnny Lee turned to leave.

"You can't do enough to make me hate you," Rev. Watts said to Johnny Lee. "I'm going to love you and pray for you, whether you like it or not."

A short time later, Rev. Watts' church was burned. His family was plagued with vicious, hate-filled phone calls, and often found notes ..."KKK is watching you."

"During the next 10 years, I gained more and more power in the Klan," Johnny Lee remembers. "Yet during those years, we never stopped persecuting Rev. Watts. The only thing that bothered me was a recurring dream I had of that baby girl. She was beautiful. And she was the only seed of doubt in my life. Somehow, it didn't seem right to hate her. It didn't seem right for her to die. But I knew the Klan's final solution included extermination of the race -- including babies.

"I didn't let that seed of doubt hinder my work, though. When Rev. Watts joined ranks with an Oklahoma senator to make the Klan's racist hot lines illegal, my blood was boiling."

Johnny Lee called Rev. Watts. "I know you're behind this," he said. "We're coming to get you, and we're going to beat you ..."

"Hello, Johnny Lee! How's the family?"

"I said we're coming for you!"

"You don't have to come for me, I'll meet you. How about Pete's Place out on Highway 270?"

"Uh ..."

"Johnny Lee, they have the best home cooking you ever tasted. And apple pie that'll make you cry for more. Iced tea in those Mason jars. I can taste it now."

"Did you hear what I said?" Johnny Lee demanded. "We're going to beat you!"

"You be sure and bring all the boys..."

"I said we're going to beat you!"

"I heard you, and that's just fine. But first, I want to buy you boys dinner. Did I tell you about their potatoes?"

Johnny Lee hung up. "What did he say?" the Klan members asked.

"He talked about home cooking, apple pie and iced tea. Said he wanted to buy our dinner."

"That old man's gone pure crazy," someone said. "Let's leave him alone."

And they did.

"During the months that followed, a girl I had dated challenged me to go to church," Johnny Lee recalls. "I decided to take her up on it, so I called an elder at Crossroads Cathedral in Oklahoma City. He met with me, and led me to the Lord. I asked Jesus into my life and received the Baptism in the Holy Spirit. A month later, someone asked me to speak at a Full Gospel Businessmen's Fellowship. I hadn't even broken ties with the Klan.

"Soon, word of my salvation reached the media, and a local newspaper asked for an interview. I gave it, and the next thing I knew I got a phone call from the Klan. I broke into a cold sweat when they said they were coming after me. I was scared."

"What are you doing, Clary?" they asked when they arrived.

Frightened for his life, Johnny Lee turned his back on God and the Church, and begged forgiveness from the Klan. He was given a second chance.

In 1989, Johnny Lee was appointed Imperial Wizard of the KKK.

"I wanted to unify all the hate groups - the different factions of the Klan, the Skinheads, the Patriots, the Neo-Nazis, the Militias, the Populists and the Aryan Nations - under one common organization," Johnny Lee recalled.

He spent months arranging a national meeting of all the white supremacist groups. Finally, all the players were in place.

What Johnny Lee didn't know, however, was that the FBI had tapped his phone and knew his plan. They arrested him on his way to the meeting.

Without his presence, the meeting fell apart. By the time Johnny Lee was released and arrived at the rally site, the different factions were fighting among themselves.

Johnny Lee surveyed the scene in disgust. I gave up my wife and child for these people. I gave up my life for this organization, and all they want to do is kill one another.

On his return home, Johnny Lee faced staggering legal battles and attorney fees. He was also disillusioned.

Where was the loyalty? he wondered. What happened to brotherhood? Wasn't the Klan supposed to be family?

Soon afterward, Johnny Lee resigned as Imperial Wizard, and walked away from the Klan. He took a good look at himself, and didn't like what he saw.

"I'd hit an all-time low in my life," Johnny Lee recalled. "Whenever I applied for a job, people just laughed."

As the months passed, Johnny Lee became more and more despondent.

Then he had a thought: Daddy escaped it all. I could go be with my dad, then I wouldn't have to worry about some Klansman putting a bullet in me.

Johnny Lee loaded his gun and put the barrel to his head.

The afternoon sun filtered through the closed blinds, casting tiny lines of light onto a Bible that lay gathering dust.

The only happiness, the only peace in my life, were those few months at Crossroads Cathedral, Johnny Lee thought. But now, it's too late for me ... The dusty Bible caught Johnny Lee's eye. He put down the gun, and picked up the Bible. It fell open to Luke 15 -- the story of the prodigal son.

Johnny Lee read the story once, then again, then a third time.

"I know what You're trying to tell me, God," he said, weeping. "That younger son turned his back on his father and wasted his life. But when he came home, the father welcomed him. You're telling me I can come home.

"God, I have no one else to turn to except You. I ask You to forgive me for the way I lived ... for all the hatred. Please, come into my heart, Jesus, and change me."

In the space of a heartbeat, the weight of years of hatred melted off Johnny Lee Clary. Weeping openly, he raised his hands and worshiped God. Then he picked up the Bible and read for hours.

"I was living in Tulsa, Oklahoma, too far to drive to Crossroads Cathedral," Johnny Lee recalls. "I visited a few churches, and although I enjoyed them very much, I knew none of them was where I was supposed to be. Each one had an all-white congregation. I knew God would never allow me to join an all-white church.

"That week, I saw an ad in the newspaper, 'Victory Christian Center - A Church For All Races.' The next Sunday, I walked into that church and knew it was right. There were blacks, Hispanics, Asians, Filipinos, every race seemed to be represented."

Johnny Lee joined the church.

"This time, I didn't tell anyone who I was. Eventually, someone recognized me, and I wrote a letter to the pastor, Billy Joe Daugherty, explaining that I'd been the Imperial Wizard of the Ku Klux Klan. He wrote back, encouraging me to spend time getting grounded in God's Word.

"God helped me get a job and, for the first time since 1982, I was happy. In addition to listening to the Word at church, I was introduced to the teaching of Kenneth and Gloria Copeland. I tuned in to their Believer's Voice of Victory program, bought their tapes and learned about faith.

"In 1991, during one of Pastor Billy Joe's sermons, the Lord called me to preach. Billy Joe's wife, Sharon, walked over to me and announced, 'God didn't save you for you to sit in Tulsa. He's commanded you to go into the world and get people saved.' "A few weeks later, Johnny Lee heard the Lord again. Call Rev. Watts.

He did.

"Hello, Johnny Lee," Rev. Watts said warmly.

"Rev. Watts, I wanted you to know that I resigned from the KKK in 1989. I gave my heart to Jesus, and I'm a member of Victory Christian Center, an interracial church. My mind is being renewed, and God has called me to preach."

"Well, praise the Lord, son!" Rev. Watts said. "Would you do me the honor of speaking at my all-black church?"

Johnny Lee choked back the tears. "I'd love to."

When Johnny Lee arrived to speak at Rev. Watts' church, there were cameras and news reporters everywhere. Once inside, Johnny Lee Clary stepped up to the podium and looked out over the sea of black faces. He saw people made in the image of God, souls that Jesus had died to save. The contempt he once felt had been replaced with a love so great, so powerful, that his knees felt weak.

This, he realized, is what real unity is all about. It was not what he had tried to do through the KKK. Real unity is only possible through love.

Johnny Lee told his story, and what Jesus had done for him. Afterward, a teenage girl ran down the aisle. "I want to know the same Jesus you know," she said.

As the altar filled with people wanting to know Johnny Lee's Jesus, he heard Rev. Watts weeping.

"Do you know who that is?" Watts asked, pointing at the young girl Johnny Lee had just led to the Lord.

"No," Johnny Lee answered.

"That's Tia," Rev. Watts said. "She's the baby I shoved in your face that day at the radio station!"

Johnny Lee turned to look at the beautiful face beaming at him. She was the baby he couldn't hate.

Rev. Watts and his wife had 13 children. Nine of them had given their lives to Jesus. In the throng of people who crowded the altar that night, Johnny Lee was privileged to introduce the other four to the Lord Jesus.

After the service, Rev. Watts and Johnny Lee embraced. An elderly black pastor wrapped his arms around a young, white, former Klansman. They both wept.

"All those years I prayed for you!" Watts said. "I never dreamed that God would use you to bring my own children into the kingdom!"

It's been more than six years now since Johnny Lee preached at Rev. Watts' church, and many things have changed. But both men still work untiringly - to spread the gospel and promote racial reconciliation.

Today, Johnny Lee Clary's greatest thrill in ministry occurs when he ministers alongside Rev. Wade Watts. His second greatest thrill is being a godfather to young Tia Watts.

Johnny Lee Clary stands amazed that one man - the man he persecuted - prayed him out of hell on earth and into heaven for eternity. Before, that kind of love was unfathomable to Johnny Lee. Now, it is a way of life.

Copyright © 1997-2004

Pastor Johnny Lee Clary's Testimony

Johnny Lee Clary learned to hate at a very young age. He was raised in a family filled with racism, anger, and bigotry. As a young teenager, after his father committed suicide and his mother abandoned him, Johnny found himself alone and looking for someplace to belong. At 14, he was seduced by the teachings of the notorious David Duke and the Ku Klux Klan, and he joined the organization.

As an impressionable young man, Johnny became so enthralled with the sense of belonging and a need for “family” that he participated in KKK events as a security enforcer. His exuberance and dedication led to him being appointed as David Duke’s personal bodyguard.

Johnny continued to advance in the organization, reveling in the feeling of finally fitting in. He went on to spend nearly 17 years in the Klan, as State Organizer and Public Relations spokesman for Imperial Wizard Bill Wilkinson of the Invisible Empire Knights of the Ku Klux Klan; then becoming Grand Dragon of the National Knights of the KKK; then Heartland Director and right-hand man to White Aryan Resistance leader Tom Metzger (by all accounts, one of the most violent men ever to preach hatred); and finally, to becoming one of the most nefarious national Klan leaders in America after being elected to the very top: Imperial Wizard (national head) of the White Knights of the Ku Klux Klan, a branch that originated in Mississippi and was considered to be the most dreaded Klan faction in history (and widely acknowledged by law enforcement as the most violent and militant of all the Klan), taking responsibility for bombings, murders, and countless other crimes—all in the name of hatred and racism. To this day, the White Knights of the Ku Klux Klan are considered the real Ku Klux Klan.

As the Klan’s national leader, during many appearances on such television programs as The Oprah Winfrey Show, the Morton Downey, Jr. Show, and many others, Johnny advocated, supported, and defended racism and violence.

But then, the destructive mindset and lifestyle he had lived for so many years began to take its toll. Riddled with torment, angered over a false arrest in Tennessee on a weapons charge, disgusted with internal bickering between the various white supremacist organizations, and the discovery that his girlfriend was an informant for the FBI, Johnny Lee left the Klan.

But life does not always repair so easily. Over the next few years he found himself derailed by issues related to his alledged daughter, two divorces, losing all of his friends, the FBI doubting his exit from the Klan, and struggling just to make an honest living. These challenges, combined with his feelings of guilt over the life of violence, prejudice, and hatred he had lived for so long, led Johnny to alcohol.

On the verge of committing suicide one night, he cried out to God to deliver him from his nightmarish existence. And God answered. From that point on, Johnny Lee used his life, his experiences, and his near destruction to help others leave the same evil path that he had walked for so long.

In 1995 Johnny was appointed by Roy Ennis to serve as West Coast Director National Director for the Congress Of Racial Equality. Since then, he has spoken at innumerable Universities, High Schools and churches, and has been a featured speaker for Youth Alive and Teen Challenge. He lectures for the FBI and other law enforcement agencies, educating officers on the mindset of white supremacists and how to best fight against domestic terrorism.

As a renowned international speaker, he has set records for the largest crowds of any motivational lecturer in Australia other than Billy Graham, with literally thousands receiving his message of hope, healing and forgiveness for racism, low self-esteem, suicidal tendencies, and substance abuse.

Johnny Lee Clary resides with his wife Melissa in Miami, Oklahoma. He has appeared on the Billy Graham Radio Show, on the television programs including:

Geraldo Rivera
Fox News
Alan Colmes
Sally Jesse Raphael
Jerry Springer
Rikki Lake
Queen Latifah
Montel Williams
Phil Donahue
A&E Investigative Reports
ABC World News Tonight
Bertrice Berry
The Today Show
A Current Affair
The 700 Club
CNBC The Big Idea w/ Donny Deutsch

He has also been a regular guest on TBN’s Praise The Lord show and has been featured in America’s top newspapers and magazines, including a seven page feature story in Charisma magazine in April 1999, Moody Magazine, GuidePost Magazine [September 1998], Kenneth Copeland's Believer's Voice of Victory magazine, as well as appearances on TV programs in Australia, England, Holland, Northern Ireland, Scotland, Sweden, and Wales.

Johnny’s book, Johnny Angel: My Life and Death at the Top of the KKK … a true story is available on his Web site.

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Do you take prescription meds? Does someone you love take prescription meds? Did you know that properly prescribed prescription meds is the number three cause of death in the USA according to the American Journal of Medicine?

E.H.-T. [Emotional Health-Thompson] | Herb no. 1 for memory

E.H.-T is a combination her that was put together by Practiced Herbalist, Joan Thompson. This is a new formula for optimal mental and emotional health. Excellent results have been achieved when used for the relief of clinical depression, manic depression, ADD [attention deficit disorder], fibromyalgia, phobias, and stress related problems due to long term illness. This blend is also helpful for sleep disorders, improvement of memory, increased alertness, and stress relief.

The following natural herbs make up this combination herb E.H.-T: St. John’s Wort, life everlasting, [cudweed], gotu kola, rice bran, lady’s slipper and Kava Kava.

Dose | Adults: 80 drops in am, 40 in afternoon and 40 at bedtime. For children: one drop per pound divided into three equal doses. Infants: use a couple of drops on the soles of the feet and up and down the spine. Results are achieved in three to six weeks so be patient. It is important to maintain blood levels while in treatment. E.H.-T should not be used in conjunction with any other prescription medications for nerves or depression.

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MEL.-W | Herb no. 2 for memory

MEL.-W [for the production of melatonin and numerous neurotransmitters.] The object is to regulate body rhythms, coordinate glandular action, and improve overall brain function. This formula also nourishes the involuntary nervous system as well as the glands of the head. This is a brain and nerve cocktail with a glandular coordinator.

This combination herb consists of the following natural herbs: alfalfa, parsley, chamomile, gotu kola, barberry, black walnut, bee pollen and maca.

Dose | 40 drops (3) times per day. If bigger problems 1 tsp. (3) times per day. For children : One drop per pound divided into three doses.

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Gingko Combination | Herb no. 3 for memory

Gingko has been clinically tested and findings reveal that long and short term memory are improved. It is also beneficial for a condition known as cerebral vascular insufficiency. It is known to help senility, Alzheimer's, dizziness, headache, lack of vigilance, macular degeneration, diabetic retinopathy, ringing in the ears, hearing loss, depression, angina, and asthma.

Gotu kola reduces brain fatigue, and revitalizes worn out bodies. Mental disorders, blood pressure problems, and brain restoring powers have all been contributed to gotu kola. Blessed Thistle is an oxygenator to the brain, heart, lungs, and blood system.

This oxygenation helps produce energy and a sense of well being, as memory and body function are aided greatly by proper oxygenation. Blessed thistle also acts as a catalyst for all other herbs. Bad cells can not exist in an area of good oxygenation.

The Gingko Combination herb consists of the following natural herbs: gingko, gotu kola, and blessed thistle.

Dose | 40 to 80 drops (3) times per day. Children protocol: One drop per pound divided into three equal dosages.

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Kava Kava Combination | Herb no. 4 for memory

Kava Kava is helpful for anxiety, depression and sleeplessness, has a mild tranquilizing effect that helps to relax the mind, clarifies the thought process and soothes the temperature. By relaxing the skeletal muscles, it is helpful for headaches caused by tense neck muscles.

Also, it has an anti-spasmodic action that relieves the coughing of whopping cough, and erases the symptoms of asthma and bronchitis. St. John’s Wort is a great nervine used to regenerate nerve tissue, treat depression and stabilize the mood.

Nerve problems of all types are helped, including neuralgia, tremors, and anxiety attacks. Gingko has been clinically tested, and findings reveal that long and short term memory are improved, and it is also beneficial for a condition known as cerebral vascular insufficiency.

It is known to help senility, Alzheimer's, dizziness, headache, lack of vigilance, macular degeneration, diabetic retinopathy, ringing in the ears, hearing loss, depression, angina, and asthma. If you are under a lot of stress, feeling overwhelmed, depressed or anxious, then this is the formula for you.

Kava Kava is an herb made up of the following combination herbs: kava kava, St. John’s Wort and Gingko.

Dose |40 to 80 drops (3) times per day. Children per protocol: One drop per pound divided into three equal dosages

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Ginkgo | Herb no. 5 for memory

Ginkgo - The leaves and other parts of these ancient trees, of which there are two kinds, male trees and female trees, have been found fossilized in layers of rock from the time when dinosaurs roamed the earth. The ginkgo tree was thought to be long extinct. Then, during the last century some seeds turned up in a hollow rock in China. No one knew what kind of seeds they were. They were planted and they grew! Low and behold, they turned out to be the seeds of the long extinct ginkgo [ginkgo biloba] tree.

Recent clinical testing has revealed both long and short term memory are improved, for all ages and body conditions, by the use of ginkgo leaves. Tests indicate ginkgo solves the memory problem caused by a condition known as cerebral ischemia [brain anemia] where the blood vessels to the brain do not carry enough blood, also sometimes described as cerebral vascular insufficiency.

Whatever it is called, the results are impaired mental performance. Tests indicate ginkgo solves this problem. Tests also indicate, one of the ways ginkgo solves this problem, is by acting as a vasodialator [an agent which opens constricted blood vessels]. The importance of proper circulation in the maintenance of good health and the reversal of diseases can hardly be underestimated. We are indeed grateful for this gift to memory and its presence with us again today.

Fossil records indicate, in the ancient past,ginkgo grew throughout North America and many other regions. Many people now have a ginkgo tree again for its beauty and thick shade. You might say, it has come home. Ginkgo's role in memory improvement is to bring oxygen and blood sugar to the brain and thus, normalize brain function.

Those who suffer from hypoglycemia [low blood sugar], hyperglycemia [high blood sugar] and Alzheimer's disease  [thought disturbances occurring in the onset of senility] are benefited by ginkgo's assistance in the proper release of energy to the nervous system for normalization of mental activity.

A Textbook of Natural Medicine, Vol. I, Ginkgo biloba, published by Bastyr College, Natural Health Sciences, Seattle, Washington, 1993, Drs. Pizzorno and Murray, presents extensive and careful research to show, as circulation to the brain normalizes with the use of ginkgo, these conditions are reversed: "... senility, dizziness, headache, lack of vigilance, macular degeneration [deterioration of the fine focus area in the back of the eye], diabetic retinopathy [fat in arteries causing poor circulation and subsequent deterioration of the image reception area in the back of the eye], ringing in the ears, hearing loss, depression, short term memory loss, angina [heart pain due to reduced blood supply], intermittent claudication [klaw-duh-ka'-shun, pain in the calf of the leg(s) due to insufficient blood circulation], impotency [when due to arterial insufficiency] and asthma [ginkgo acting as an anti-allergy agent]."

This information clearly indicates, ginkgo can be taken for prevention of problems as well as their reversal. Certainly, in the prevention of strokes and heart attacks and those conditions mentioned, ginkgo should be considered as a valued herb.

Dose | 40 to 80 drops 3 times per day as maintenance. 80 to 120 drops 3 times per day in therapeutic use for the reversal of serious conditions.

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Gotu Kola | Herb no. 6 for memory

Gotu kola is a tiny, delicate water lily from the island of Sri Lanka [ormerly Ceylon] off the southeastern coast of India. This is the plant the famed elephants of Ceylon snatched up a mouthful of before going into the water for their frolic.

The memories of these elephants were said to be phenomenal and the subject of many stories and much amazement. Guess what? People can eat Gotu Kola leaves also and their memory can improve. Memory temporarily winking out is not just a problem of the aged, as you well know. Younger folks just don't talk about it.

If you would live, and live well, for a very long time you must have a very powerful nervous system and this is what gotu kola produces. Gotu Kola reduces brain fatigue and revitalizes worn out bodies. In many religious orders, Gotu Kola is used to correct conditions of the skin that look like fish scales [ichthyosis], and parasitic swellings of the body [elephantiasis], leprosy, syphilitic ulcers and bruises.

Mental disorders and blood pressure problems have also yielded to the blood cleaning and brain restoring powers of gotu kola. Gotu kola also deserves its reputation as a poison antidote.

Dose |Therapeutically and for memory, 20 to 40 drops three times per day after meals, but you must remember to take it. For a stronger nervous system, brain, and memory, a year of use can made a great difference and thereafter, 20 to 40 drops per day as a maintenance.

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B.& N.C.-W [brain and nerve cocktail] | Herb no. 7 for memory

The combination herb is used to feed and repair the glands in the brain, [pituitary, pineal and hypothalmus, as well as the brain itself] and the autonomic nervous system [involuntary nervous system composed of its two divisions, the sympathetic and parasympathetic nervous systems]. In the eye, the autonomic nervous system is shown as a ring [the autonomic nerve wreath] about a third of the way out from the pupil toward the edge of the iris [brown or blue part of the eye].

This combination of herbs provides alfalfa to clean and feed the pituitary, barberry for the hypothalmus, chamomile for the pineal gland, gotu kola [does not contain caffeine] for the entire brain and memory, parsley for the involuntary nervous system and black walnut with its cleaning and corrective electrical properties for all of the nerve tissues. If you don't know what else to do, clean the blood and the bowel. Clean and nourish the nervous system and repair it at the same time.

The brain and nervous system function better when they are clean and nourished. You feel better. People seldom eat any food for the purpose of a body part or parts. They eat their food with their tongues and eyes. You can be different and consciously eat something just for your brain and nerves. B.& N.C.-W can also be of assistance in getting off of drugs.

The B. & N.C.-W is a combination made of the following natural herbs: alfalfa, parsley, chamomile, gotu kola, barberry and black walnut.

Dose |40 drops, 3 times per day. Also rub on temples, around the ears and back of the neck in quantities needed, 3 times per day.

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Audio Teaching | Why We Fight With Those We Love

You're all too familiar with how we can sometimes be kinder to people we don't know -- at work, at church and in the community -- than we sometimes are to our own family, children, siblings and spouse.

Why? Because they know more about us than anyone. And, yeah, sometimes they tend to not forget even when we've confessed and the Lord has forgiven us. The consequence -- quarrels and fights that others are usually exposed to. Darn.

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Pure Herbs can be applied to the infants abdomen, chest and soles of the feet. But you should only apply the Pure Herbs to one area, not all three. This will give the same effect as taking them internally. You only need apply a small amount to cover the area. Please use a little Vitamin E with Selenium along with the herbs.

Pure Herbs to Calm children | All Cells Salts, Chamomile, Fenugreek

Pure Herbs for Colic | Ginger, Fenugreek, Thyme, Papaya Mints, Indian Tobacco [externally on the abdomen]

Pure Herbs for Croup | Externally rub Oil of Cajeput, Garlic & Mullein Oil, Indian Tobacco on chest. The combination of these herbs will give relief.

Pure Herbs for Iron Source | Bilberry, Chickweed, Mullein [dark grape juice and black cherry juice], HI.I.-W

Pure Herbs for Mucus Infection | Cleansing Corrective Extract-W [can be rubbed on the chest] and Oil of Cajeput can be rubbed on chest, F.V.E-W

Pure Herbs as Liquid Multi-Vitamin | Alfalfa, Chlorella, All Cells Salts, Formula M, Vita Lixir, V.M.-W, Spirulina

Pure Herbs for Whooping Cough-Type Problems | Black Cohosh, Evening Primrose, Gravel Root, Pluerisy Root, Kava Kava Combination, Knitbone & Fenugreek, Wild Cherry Bark, Yerba Santa Combination

Children's dosage

For children 25-50 pounds, use 1/3 of the dosage given.

For children 51-75 pounds, use 1/2 of the dosage given.

For children 76-100 pounds, use 2/3 of the dosage given.

For children above 100 pounds, use full dosage given.

For infants and small babies

Usually, a practitioner works with one drop on the tongue at a time, then the affect is noted before administering more. Wait a few minutes before you give more and, in general, do not exceed 5 to 10 drops at a time.

External use for everyone

If using the herb externally, use whatever is necessary to cover the area, such as the soles of the feet, the length of the spine and back of the neck, on the chest and/or abdomen.

This information is about historical observations and historical information relating to herbs. This information is not intended to be a substitute for medical advice by licensed physicians. A person should consult a physician regularly in all matters relating to medical problems, especially in matters of diagnosing, treating or curing diseases or other physical or mental conditions. This information has not been verified by the American Medical Association or the Food and Drug Administration.